Good or Bad news first?

Good News

• My family is coming Friday and staying for over a week :)
• We have conference tickets to 3 sessions!
• All applications for the Teaching grad program are DONE.
• There are only 3 weeks of school left.
• I have a ton of friends coming down to Utah this weekend. I love visitors.
• The finance test I thought I failed... I actually got a 93. That never happens to me.
• Its my dad's 50th birthday while they are down. I haven't been with him on his birthday for 3 years.
• I am working on a development project with "Sustain Haiti" and things are starting to come together. The first crew will be on the ground in a month.
• Tickets have been bought to go to "Stadium of Fire" with Carry Underwood
• I went to the Jason Aldean and Luke Bryan concert. I won backstage passes to meet Luke. I freaked.
• I have been going through my room and throwing a ton of stuff away. It feels good to clear stuff out.
• There is only one more FHE left that I am in charge of. I am about out of ideas.
• I have run into Jimmer at least once a week for the last month an a half. Today it was a very close encounter. Hes probably following me hey?
  

Bad News

• For all 3 conference sessions we only have 3 tickets.
• There are issues with my American EFY paper work.
  
• I do not have a back up plan if EFY doesn't work.
• There are only 3 weeks of school left.
  
• I have pink eye.
• Rylie and Courtney are going to return home this weekend with tans worthy of envy.
• I need to scrounge up $2000 to go to Haiti.
• I just got a stack of 25 grad notices to mail out.
• After almost a week of gorgeous spring weather I was hit by a snowflake or two today. Stop playing with my heart.
• I have started packing.. which means the end is near.
• My Ipod has been out of commission for about a month, my computer is on its death bed, and Dug (my car) is showing signs of illness.
• I have a term paper looming. Topic: Canada's Economic History. Maybe my dad will assist in the process this weekend...
  

None of the bad news is really that BAD. I have a lot to be grateful for and some fun adventures to look forward to.

Time Flies... When Your Sick

1. I am sick. And sick of it. This might be the end of me.
2. I have applied to U of L, U of C, and U of A for "after degree teaching programs" I have decided Math teaching might be my calling in life.
3. I have a new favorite song: http://popup.lala.com/popup/432627045464169055
4. The fact that it is the middle of March scares me.
5. I am going to see Jason Aldean and Luke Bryan on Friday. I love them.
6. After studying for 2 days and doing really well on my first two finance mid-terms ... today I did terrible on the third.
7. I have started working with a "Sustain Haiti" project through BYU, I hope to be going in May.
8. I miss my family very much. But I am counting the days until they come down :) (15)
9. I got a kick out of some St. Patrick Day participants today. Top hats, Kilts, Bandannas, and Man-shawls were all spotted on BYU campus today.
10. I have a plan to drive on campus with Haliaka. Its been a few years in the works and we will be executing the adventure any day now.
    

Allison

Its late sunday night and all my roommates are in bed (well except rylie because she never actually sleeps, but shes hibernating in her room) and I'm up... which means its time to blog.

I thought I had the rest of my life planned this week. I am told I need an internship. I know I want to go a remote third-world country. I think I am too young to have a big kid job.

Early last week I found something that would solve all of my worries. A International Development Internship. Its threw BYU so I would have to put off graduation until December, but thats ok because I dont really want to graduate yet and I would graduate with another minor. So I run over to the kennedy center and frantically try to track down someone to talk to about my internship. I meet Andrew. He knows everything about these internships. He explains how I will have to work very hard to get everything in on time but he gave me the contact info of the girl over the Pacific Internships (Fiji is the goal) and tells me its very do-able to get in on time. Our little meeting leaves me feeling higher than a kite and all of a sudden ready for the future. Andrew has saved the day. I say "K bye Andrew thanks so much". Andrew says "No problem Allison, well see ya around".

That was weird. My name isn't Allison. Or sound remotely close to that.
O well.

I email Fiji girl.. she doesn't respond. So after class the next day I figure Ill just drop by the office and see if she is in. She isn't. I'm talking to the secretary about how to find her. I hear " O hey Allison, how are you doing?" Whaaaaaaaaat. "Hey Andrew, good expect I cant find ...." We go to try and find fiji girl. In the meantime we learn that the application deadline for the Fall semester is the next day. Dang it. But everything is ok... Andrew assures me of it. He starts pulling some strings. As he is pulling these strings I meet 4 or 5 people in the international office. All of them think my name is Allison. Each one is more important than the next. And each time it becomes more awkward but more necessary for them to know my real name.

Andrew writes notes with ALLISON... underlines on the top of the page.

The time is approaching for me to provide my email address. which happens to be my name. my real name. I have a few different ways of handling the situation. I settled on telling him that Allison was my middle name and thats what I have gone by since I was little.

The head-honcho of BYU international development happens to come in. By now I have 4 people in the office running around trying to get different papers and crap together for me. He wants to know what the tisy in his office is about. Andrew once again incorrectly introduces me and tell him the situation.

Long story short... I got shut down. Mr big wig told me it was impossible to go.
He was squishing my life dreams so easily and had no idea.
He didn't even know my real name.

I left the office mad, sad... but also a little glad that the awkwardness of the name correction would have brought.

There was one more thing on the to-do list that day. Order a cap and gown for graduation. I went around 5. No one else was there... it was a weird experience. The old people in robes were very helpful... but I really didn't want to be dealing with them.

For some reason the mix of having my perfect plan destroyed and being violently slammed into my future combined into a deadly explosion.

I called my mom... and BYU campus witnessed a Tiffany Allison Smith break down.

I'm over it now. Life is good. We aren't supposed to have the rest of our lives planned out.
And honestly it would be a very boring life if we could.